CAAAARRRAAAZZYY!!!

Stepped on the scale this morning and my mind was blown! I lost another 2.8 pds!! I am now 1.4 pds away from my original goal. Its crazy! I had felt last week that I was going to have a big loss and it was .6 and then this week I felt like I hadn't lost anything and whamoo I lost 2.8. I am still in shock that over the last 4 years I have lost 110 pounds. That is almost another person and that is just so almost impossible to wrap my mind around. At this point in my journey I am back to eating all the food groups. I have a few of my prepared medifast meals left and have been eating them here and there when I am not feeling like thinking through my choices! I continue to realize that I have to prepare ahead and really think through my day to prepare for my meals. In the last week I am trying to think more out of the box and look for some other 100 calorie meals. Getting in the habit of eating the same things over and over is ok for me but at some point I have to add some new things. The other struggle I had this week was for sweets and breads. I had a 1/4 of a pop tart that was left on the counter. I truly have no idea why I ate it there was no reason to and it was complete impulse. I did fess up to Jason that I did it and that helped keep me accountable. All of Gabe's candy in the house is a huge temptation. Its just such a small piece of candy what harm can that do. A LOT OF HARM!! I took a bucket of it to work yesterday for others to eat. Gabe doesn't eat it either but I don't want to waste it and throw it away. I'll continue to share the sweets with others :-) As you can see my struggles and temptations don't ever stop it's how I work my way through each of them that is the most important.
I had an amazing conversation this past week with a friend of mine. She shared with me her struggle with anorexia for many years when she was younger. She made an awesome comment that her and I struggle with the same issues with food its just on 2 different ends. She has to make sure that she does eat and I have to make sure I don't eat to much. It is the same conscious and difficult daily struggle each day for both of us. It all revolves around emotions and we have both had to take out the connection of eating and emotions. I had never thought of it that way but she is so right. She is the first person that I feel really truly understands the struggle that I experience daily or even hourly or by the minute on some days. I now know that she will be keeping me accountable and me her.