Struggling

Today has been one of the hardest days that I have had in months. Financial stress has hit hard today and I am fighting to not just eat and eat. I went to Bill Miller's this morning to meet a Scentsy customer. I thought as I was going out the door that I am right at the time that I need to eat so I'll just grab a taco. First this is not the best choice when I have much better things to be eating at home. I had plenty that I could've grabbed and eaten on the way. So I get to Bill Millers and I order not 1 but 2 potato egg and cheese tacos. At this point the internal battle is on full force. "Don't eat both." "Oh its not a big deal its just one meal eat them both." I ate the first one and then texted Jason who reminded me that I needed to pray. I asked God for peace with the financial issues and to help me fight threw. It for sure helped but that doesn't mean that the struggle went away. It has been a rough day and I am ready for a new one. I will get through it though as I always do. The goal is to have there be as little damage as possible when its all said and done. I am reminded that this journey never ends and some days are just going to be harder than others.