Struggles are back

Over the holidays eating healthy is even more challenging than other times of the year. All the cookies, pies, stuffing, buttery potatoes and it goes on and on. Over the last 2 weeks my level of exhaustion has been at an all time high. Work is the main component contributing to the exhaustion. The call volume is non stop each day for 10 hours straight. We had been told that this time of the year calls slowed down and things would get better. Not sure when that is going to happen because each day is the same with a ton of calls. That on top of financial concerns that continue to linger for us and not getting much time with my family due to our work schedules things have not been good. I devoured 3/4 of a piece of pizza last weekend in the middle of a "discussion" with Jason and he said "You re eating pizza?" My response " I know" and another big bite goes into my mouth. 3 weeks ago I felt that my eating was starting to slip as I was feeling the stress and the exhaustion continuing to rise. As the exhaustion rose my ability to fight of the urges to eat awful got less and less. I literally didn't have the energy to fight the battle in my mind. I am continuing to battle this even today. I gained 1.8pds last Wednesday and surprisingly this week I stayed the same. Each day I wake up and I say today I am going to do it no sweets and healthy choices. I get through the entire day and do great and then at night my last meal I don't stick to what I should be eating. This is completely back to my old patterns of emotions and eating. I have been praying and will continue to that God will give me strength to get through this time. I feel like I have gained at least 10 pds. My clothes aren't fitting the same and I can see that my body is changing again. I haven't gone running since my last 2.5 mile run last week. I am hoping to pick things up again and am hoping financially I can afford to get new running shoes, a sports bra since mine is now way too big :-), and afford the entry fee for the Dallas half marathon at the end of March. I had a plan to get all these things in December but the bills had to be paid first. I am going to continue to battle through this and rely on God and not myself since that is for sure not working.

Off to work some OT :-) Merry Christmas all my readers!

MADE MY GOAL!!

Yesterday's weigh in I was extremely worried about. I felt like I had gained and I did enjoy my Thanksgiving meal :-) To my shock I lost everything that I had gained the week prior plus another 1.4 pds! Which means that I have officially made my goal weight that I set and honestly never thought I would get to 5 months ago. Last week I was able to get in 3 days of an amazing and brutal workout. Jason and I both did the Insanity workout! It was truly insane. The name is no joke. Getting back on track since eating that delicious Thanksgiving meal has been difficult. I am working to tighten things down again and be disciplined the way that I need to be in order to stay healthy. I am now working toward another 19.5 pds and I will then be at the weight that I want to maintain at. I am hoping in the next 6 months that I will reach that goal. Maybe sooner :-)

My stress level today has gone up due to some more financial stresses. I found myself again turning to food but caught myself and decided to went for a run instead. I found myself able to run at a much faster pace then I ever have before. What an awesome feeling! The journey continues and I am still ready for the challenge to get healthy and stay that way.