Week 1

I am in week 1 on Medifast and wow it has been tough. The tough part is not the food or how it tastes or that I am hungry. The tough part is that emotionally I am a wreck because I no longer have the food to turn too. I truly had no idea how much of a dependence I had put on food when I was stressed, worried, anxious, or any emotion for that matter. The last week I have lost my Tia who was very dear to me. She is actually my husbands aunt but she is the only person is his family that in 8 years has ever made me feel welcome and a part of the family. With her loss comes a loss of a sense of belonging to this family. Not an easy thing to process or no what to do with it. I am in a job that I really dread going to and am hoping that I will be blessed with something that I will feel joy in going to each day. Jason had an interview on Friday morning and wrecked the car on his way back trying to get back in time for Tia's funeral. I also found out that my grandmother who I am also very close to has approx 2 weeks to live. Yes this has all come down in the last week and the same week that I chose to start Medifast. Wow if I had known I think I would've waited another week!!
On the other hand I feel as though God is teaching me so much in the last week. Sometimes I really hate the process of teaching that God sends me through! Its never fun until you are on the other side. I am now with everything going on having to depend on God and not on food. This is the area of my life that without realizing that I have truly not given over to him. So that is what I have been struggling with in the last week. I am making lil steps of progress but wow this is a big battle that I am fighting. I will weigh in officially on Wednesday morning. I will be posting on that day to let everyone know weight wise how things turned out for the first week.