Anxiety=Want to eat

The last few days have proven to me that I still have a long ways to go on this journey. Last Thursday I got some news that has invoked a huge amount of anxiety for me. In a good way!! I have the potential of a door opening for me that I have been praying for for a long time. Unfortunately I won't know the results of all this for maybe 2-3 weeks. I am hoping that it will all come to a conclusion sooner than that but I just don't know. It is truly out of my hands and completely in God's. I have a huge amount of faith and I know that God is going to put me exactly where he wants me. I really hope that this opportunity is where he wants me. I noticed in the last 2 days as I looked back I have been feeling like a bottomless pit since all this started. I have also noticed that I am eating much faster and just shoving my lean and green meal in. I am eating so fast that it's all gone and I don't really remember lifting the fork from plate to mouth. I noticed that this is happening and know that I consciously have to be aware of what is going on and my reactions to it. For the week and possibly the weeks coming up that is going to be mt focus. To feel the feelings and enjoy them, work through them, pray about them, and again not rely on the food.
Giving myself some credit.... In 5 weeks I have not one time gone off the plan. Many times I wanted to but it wasn't worth and I know that I am not ready to fight that big of a battle yet. At some point I will!! I am starting to think about what life is going to be like without Medifast. I have 5 weeks to go and financially at this point I will not be able to go another month which is heartbreaking. I have another 25 to 30lbs to go to my goal and in the next 5 weeks I am hoping to lose another 10bs. So an additional 2 months may just get me to my goal. I am praying that God will provide the financial means for me to continue or give me the strength to do it without the Medifast program and still make it to my goal. I am feeling so amazing about myself! I have no more clothes from the past that I can see if I fit into! I already fit them and some are too big which is AMAZING!! In my first week I never thought that I would make it this far and I AM!! Really am proud of myself :-)